I Am Healing…

I am healing from…
My childhood pain
 
Events that happened
As a teenager
Young adult
My 20’s and beyond
To current day
This age
In my life
 
I am healing from…
Pain caused by others
 
I am healing from…
Pain inflicted upon myself
 
I am healing from…
Old mindsets
Old beliefs
Old ways
Old visions
 
Those things
Which held me captive
Had a strong hold on me
 
I am healing from…
Burdens carried for far too long
The weight of
Damage done 
Physically, mentally spiritually, psychologically too
 
Years taken from me
Years taken from my life
 
Oh, how I am working to improve
Who it is
He
Has called me to be
 
Knowing
Whose daughter
I am
 
I am the daughter
Of
The Most High God
 
I know
I was born for greatness
 
Never
Will He leave me
 
Always
By my side
 
With me
My
Guiding light
 
Giving me 
HOPE
Showing me
There is a way!
 
In spite of
The darkness
The storm
The fight or flight mode
 
He
Knows how
To
Turn every situation
Around
 
When times are tough
When life seems to be too much
Overwhelmed
Discouraged
Confused
In fear
 
I question
I do
(I really try not to!)
 
My purpose
In life
Is this where I need to be?
 
Feelings of failure
Feeling like giving up
(That’s way too easy of an option so I don’t!)
 
I know
Deep within my soul
Even though
I may be going through
Uncertain times
Darkness of days
 
My Father
He
Has something better in store
Something
Specially designed for me
 
Don’t lose sight of
Don’t lose hope
Don’t forget His love
 
I know
He takes
Such delight
In ME!
 
I AM HEALING
 
He brought this thought
To
My attention
 
 
He reminded me
Of this
Through
 
Difficult conversations
Outpouring cry
Tears
Heartache
Pain
Confusion
My perception
My reality
 
Oh
Such agony I felt
 
Was it me?
Was it the world?
Was it other people?
Was it stress?
Was it related to my profession?
Was it my hormones?
A combination of so many things (I do believe)
 
I know how great
His love is
For me!
 
I know
How much
He loves me
That
I am truly blessed!
 
I doubted myself
My wounded
My damaged
 
Body
Mind
Soul
 
Old truths
Old beliefs
Old versions of myself
 
I bled
On other people
 
With
My old wounds
A mindset
A soul
Not yet
Fully healed
 
Not intentionally
Unknowingly
 
Many things
Have come to
The forefront
The foreground
Of
The mind
Moving forward
Moving on
 
With an awareness
Knowing
I am loved
 
Regardless
Of my old mindset
Of my old beliefs
Of the old version of myself
 
There is forgiveness
There is healing
 
Thank goodness
God provides
 
God Bless
Those 
Who have remained
By my side!

Guardian Angels!
Servants!
Certainly not slaves!
 
I know
I have what it takes
To grow
To become
A better version of myself
Inside
 
To those
Who
Help keep me grounded
 
Are there
Are present
Regardless of the version
Of myself
That’s revealed
Discovered
 
Good
Bad
Happiness
Sad
 
Thunderstorms
Rain showers
Cloudy skies
Sunshine
 
When
I feel like
I have lost it
Or
Have gone insane
(Not really, but the intensity of it, is there.)
 
Many things
Have happened in my life
Still
Working through many things
Now
Until this present moment
Day
 
Perfect Storms
They do exist
I can speak from experience
YES!
 
Winning combinations
(so to speak)
Conditions
Stressors in life
Making life
More difficult to navigate
To travel through
Rough roads
Rough terrain
Rough seas
 
While experiencing
Big emotions
Some times
I feel ashamed
 
A loss of
A lack of control
 
My inner child
Screaming
Wailing
 
Wanting to be heard
Wanting attention
Wanting to be let out
Wanting to be released
Wanting me to let go
 
STOP HOLDING ON!
 
My soul
Needed a release
A chance
To be heard
Validated
Accepted
And so much more…
 
Was it ugly?
YES
(I bawled my eyes out!)
 
Was it messy?
YES
(My tears went everywhere!)
 
Was it uncomfortable?
YES
(I was curled up on the floor-feeling insecure, vulnerable!)
 
Words
Feelings
Emotions
Everything poured out
 
After the release
I felt
Exhausted
Fatigued
Empty
Had a loss of appetite
 
Recovering
From such a strong emotional experience
Takes time
To recover from
 
My hope
Upon having this experience
Is 
For my mind
To become unstuck

To let go of old beliefs
To let go of old habits
To let go of old mindsets
To let go of old memories
To accept the past for what it was
To let go of things that happened
To let go of the connections my mind makes
 
Today is a new day
To be present
To be mindful
To be more aware
 
Form new habits
Release negativity and comparison 
(even though I didn't realize I was comparing)
Maintain a positive attitude
 
Everyone
Is their own individual
Is their own unique self
 
Even though
Characteristics
Habits
Mannerisms
May be similar
Not fair
To treat all of them the same
 
Old habits
Are hard to break
Especially
Old thought processes
Old mind sets
Old ways of thinking
Beliefs
About the world
About oneself
 
Breaking free
From the emotional bondage
My past
 
I prefer
To travel lighter
 
The baggage
I have carried
Has cost me too much!
 
With such freedom
One can take flight
 
No limits
 
The moon
The stars
The Milky Way
The galaxy
 
God
He will help me
He will help you
Find a way
 
He is my Heavenly Father
He is my Guardian
He is my Protector
He is my Shield
He is my Teacher
He is who I turn to in my daily life, living
Helping me to understand
Reminding me once again about who I am
 
I AM HIS DAUGHTER
 
I know that He will bring me through
Every storm
Every trial
Every hardship
Confusing moments
Overwhelming times
 
Not yet healed…
 
My life continues…
Moving forward
Moving on
By His grace
With His love
 
I will have become
 
HEALED
 
In my own timing