On the evening of April 25th, I may have been seated alone in our sauna, but He was there, with me, waiting for me to spend quality time in conversation.
I had written down several pages of words, trying to work things through my mind, set my heart and thoughts straight. It took some time to get some of the junk out, but I finally was able to hear His soft and tender voice, speaking through to me.
As I asked questions, I listened (not knowing whether or not I would receive responses to my questions). I was all in, with all of my heart and with the purest of intention. What I heard in response to my questions were His Words. I do believe He needed to gain my attention this way so I would know that it was His spirit in me, helping me to know and believe.
I’m not really one to ask questions, but I really needed Him, His guidance and wisdom. This was the first time I had tried writing questions down, paused and waited to hear His response. I really did put my focus on Him to guide me on my way.
(Me) God.
I know you.
I know you see more than I can imagine, envision, dream. You are working all things out for my greater good.
(Me) I don’t like questioning your plans for me, but what is it that makes doing the right thing, and loving so deeply, hurt so much? What lesson am I supposed to learn?
(Me) This pattern, this cycle, keeps repeating and I need your wisdom and guidance to get me through. What are your plans for me? What is the next step that will bring me closer to you?
(God) You have not because you ask not.
(Me) Well, I guess that is the big reveal. Looks like the solution is contributed to my own problem, something I have lacked, omitted doing.
(Me) But I thought you always know what’s in my heart?
(God) Be still and know that I am God.
(Me) Where is it you are taking me?
(God) Lay down beside me in green pastures.
(God) Though I travel through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for I am with you.
(Me) Whom is it I am afraid? If not whom I am afraid of, then what is it I fear inside? What is holding me back from achieving this next critical step?
(God) Fear not for the plans I have are for you to prosper, not harm you.
(Me) I know you will tend to me for I am your sheep. Every time I get lost, you leave the rest of the flock and come back for me.
(Me) God I thank you for this moment, sharing in an intimate moment and conversation. I need only be still so I may hear your voice. It is You who speaks to me in a soft and peaceful voice, in ways I can understand. You are my Friend. You are my Father. My love is great for you and in no way compares to how great your love is for me! I know I can turn to you. I know I can talk to you about everything that is going on in my life. There are so many things that weigh me down, hardening my heart. I can give it all up to you, be given peace and freedom time and time again.
(God) Lay down your burdens. Be free from all sin and anxiety.
(Me) Thank you for your reassuring words, helping me to feel heard, seen, loved and without judgement, even though my emotions weighed heavily upon me. You are always excited when I spend quality time with you. You always meet me with open arms. You always make me feel loved and very special. You make me feel like I am your one and only and how much I matter to you!
(God) My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.
(Me) Yes, God!
(God) My love endures forever.
(Me) I know I am your child. I am growing more spiritually mature thanks to the courage and confidence I’ve gained through loving and trusting in you.
Magnificent Meraki 