Have you ever had one of those day where there seems to be one odd thing happening after another, those moments where you stop and say to yourself, what is going on out there? The energy has shifted, something has changed. You hope for this to soon pass, giving way to good things and positive energy.
From my students’ families, I had messages that needed to be responded to. One was waiting for a couple days already (as I was out of town when the message was sent), which was probably the one I could more easily and quickly respond to. The next one, I reached out to my team for support as it was not an ordinary checking in sort of message, rather it needed more attention. Once I had the opportunity to connect with all team members, regarding this, I received another message. This message came from staff, via phone call letting me know about two other student’s parents’ messages. One was an easy, peasy one for it was a student’s birthday and the parent was bringing down some treats. It was the second one in that phone conversation that the news I received came as a shock. I was not expecting to hear what I heard for I had no prior knowledge about a student’s last day (which occurred yesterday).
Throughout the day, I wasn’t sure how to feel, having mixed emotions about the upcoming change with having to relocate to another school, starting over with a new team, as well as processing and trying to understand what it is that brought parents to this point and time, making the decisions they have made.
I didn’t like feeling left out, feeling in the dark and not having any sort of heads up or conversation about the concerns. For the other, I wondered what more will it take? I feel some confusion regarding written messages and some that have been spoken as well.
On this end of things, I am the receiver of the messages, regardless of the intent and how it was meant to come through.
I know I can’t expect from others what I give, that would be an unrealistic expectation, but a part of me hurts, feels disrespected.
Will I look at some people the same way knowing what I know? Most likely not.
Will I carry this along as a burden and be angry about? Nope!
You know why? Cause this again was another test, preparing me for what is next. More important life lessons learned, so let’s keep this moving along and not get stuck on these trivial things, (the workings of the enemy for sure). He keeps on trying, but I keep doing my best to show up, keep my peace, keep putting God first above all things.
Yeah, it seems as if I may have been quite frustrated given today’s circumstances and trials, not to mention the weighing on my heart of the move to the new school for the upcoming school year. Both these events collided, provided me with a good reminder once again, that God is still in control.
What I once thought was or would be or envisioned had only been an illusion in my mind. God must be up to something good, even better with the challenges I most recently have been facing. The uncertainty is before me, yet God my father goes before me. I need not worry no fear for He has created a path and is lighting the way. Although I may not know or understand, I will continue to trust and seek Him at all times.
Magnificent Meraki 