Going Outside the Comforts of the Womb

This morning my attention was drawn towards the comforts of being in the womb. Immediately I thought about work, knowing I will be leaving a place where I was welcomed in, who loved me first and I immediately fell in love with the people and school too!

At some point in time, it was meant to happen. Either now or later, this is a birthing process I needed to go through. The umbilical cord that nourished and gave me life will soon be severed and I will be living, breathing, on my own in the world and in a new place. The familiarity I once had will be replaced with being outside my comfort zone. I don’t know what awaits me outside this world I’ve come to know. What I do know it was necessary for my own growth and development, to be put into this environment.

The place I have been for the last two years has nourished me back to health. I needed to be here. A place where I learned to build basic foundational skills, have basic needs met, before going back into the world, a place where there is uncertainty, dark forces that may exist. These two years have provided me with time and opportunities to build my resiliency, confidence, know I am loved and appreciated for exactly who I am. I know that I matter, I belong, and that is huge when there have been times in my life where I felt all alone, disrespected and the luster of life and teaching had been worn down low.

This womb I have been in has been a place of safety, a place where I learned to trust other people, see-know-feel the goodness and others, surrounded by love and shown great respect. Being in a place like this has brought great hope, knowing there is so much good in the world, a place where one can be themselves and allow their light to shine brightly from within. A place without judgement, a place where one can just be-themselves.

My womb has been a place of light. Never once did I have any reason to fear. I’ve been surrounded by those who love without conditions, those who see my strengths, encourage, uplift, and inspire. I am being sent forth in light and love too. My hope is to bring with me what I’ve been given and have learned and share this light and love with others.

Nobody likes goodbyes. Nobody likes having to leave just when you got a good thing going, God shakes it up and puts you to the test. Your thoughts, your words, your actions, your mindset, everything matters to God. It is a new beginning, a new chapter in my life. Never an ending, always a new beginning. What has been taken from me will be replaced with something even better and more beautiful.

Although I may not like this discomfort, I know it is necessary for my personal growth, for He has plans for me to prosper. Although the sting of this all, hurts, it’s only temporary and together we will make our way through. How can I learn, grow, and become if I refuse or resist to be born into a new life?

There will be pain. There will be suffering. Many challenges and trials that await me. There are storms on the horizon, changing of the tides and the ups and downs of life, the rollercoaster rides I will be on.

Maybe this is the season of becoming comfortable with being perpetually uncomfortable. This is needed to grow me. This is where my roots keep reaching down deeper and deeper, becoming stronger to support and sustain life in the upcoming seasons. The fruits of the harvest will take time to grow and mature. I need to be patient and trust in His plan.

Keeping God first.
Keeping my focus on Him.

Being mindful that it is His plans I am following and serving Him on this journey in life.

I need not worry, be jealous, nor envy for their plans are not my plans nor are their plans my plans.

We all come here to learn important and valuable life lessons.

This journey alone is mine to experience and discover.

I am grateful to all who have crossed my path, leaving a positive impact and an impression on my soul.

Thanks to you, I have changed and become a better person.

Thanks to you, I am becoming exactly who God created me to be.