This evening, my energy, my vibe has been feeling so amazingly good. Everybody else in the getting themselves ready for bed and I am getting ready to spend some quiet time with God and do some writing as I feel incredibly inspired. At last! (I think to myself.) Time alone! Time to myself! Just God and I! I am feeling so blessed! I am feeling inspired!
At that moment, I gathered the things needed, including my laptop, paper, pen and phone. Next, I situated my striped comforter, sporting my favorite color (pink) and wrapped myself up, snuggled in, getting positioned to take comfort in Him.
Just as I was about to start writing, my spouse comes down and sits right beside me. He said he wanted to sit next to me and snuggle up. This may sound bad (but really it’s not), I thought, WTF! (inside of my head). Not that I didn’t want to snuggle, I love hugs and snuggling, like, REALLY, REALLY love it! But this was my alone time with God! I was anticipating and planning on having time to just sit by myself downstairs in silence, and enjoy the words and inspiration only He can provide me with.
Coming down and sitting next to me, wanting to snuggle, is not a regular or normal thing. This really caught me off guard and wondered what got in to him, what was going on. Usually just says good night and goes to bed. I know he knows, writing is a very important part of my life. A way to express myself, it’s a freedom and expression of the soul. That’s just me talking, thinking much deeper thoughts than he would think or say, but just knowing writing makes a difference in my lives and that of other people. He was just trying to change it up and do something different. Well, different that was…an enjoyable change, a surprise (I would say).
I had been feeling so much creative energy this evening, many things I have been inspired by and want to write about. There is only so much time to write this evening and I, too, need to get some rest. Coming morning, I hope God will continue the flow, keep providing, the inspiration, the peace and joy felt deep within my heart, and carry that on throughout my days.
My paper, pen, laptop and phone, were all put to the side as he sat down beside me. (I needed to because some things I had written and ripped out of my tablet, were about to get squished in between us!) His arm, stretched across my shoulders and holding me close. After being held for some time, I thought, now this moment gave me something to write about. This wasn’t what I planned on writing, as I had on my mind while taking a shower, to write about other things. I was thinking about work and what families go through. I had on my mind to write about them and life happenings. Tomorrow, God willing, tomorrow, I will write about those things. There was something much more important He wanted me to experience and see. A blessing in and of itself without even knowing or realizing it at the moment.
Of all days, I had to ask, why did he choose tonight, of all nights, to snuggle up close and spend time with me. No particular reason why, just because, I guess. All week long I was extremely exhausted, fatigued, quite frankly, I didn’t feel human. In all honesty, I felt like shit! Snuggles together during those days would have truly been amazing! (Just calling it as I see it and feel it!) Then, I thought for a moment, laughed and said, well it must be my good vibrational energy that I am emitting that attracted you to snuggle up close in a blanket with me tonight. He laughed too, and said, maybe.
The more I think about it, the more I realize how open, responsive and receptive I am, responding to his cues. For many days, I didn’t feel like doing much for I felt such exhaustion and fatigue. God, He has filled my spirit with His unconditional love and peace this evening, helping me to become one with Him in spirit.
As you may see, come to understand this moment is monumental, a milestone in my life. God, put it all out there, showing me just how loved I am this day. The events of the past, are done, they are over. Just as God has forgiven me of the poor choices I have made in life, he has shown me how much love and forgiveness there is right here in my family! To live a life in peace and harmony, putting all faith and trust in Him.
Magnificent Meraki 