Strugglebus

Have you ever felt like you were going places, yet not really going anywhere at all? Life can get so complex and seemingly complicated that we need a navigational system to help us find our way through. May has arrived. The school year is almost over. With that said, there have been many things on …

Signs of God’s Love

The more I acknowledge God, His workings, and His teachings in my life, the more He makes His presence known. Hearts and crosses appear in many places. He goes before me, although His footprints I do not see. It is His great love He has given us, that I am reminded of every day in …

What a Difference Your Voice Can Make

TodayThe voice withinDid speakPrompting meTo reach outTo take a chanceThrough wordsThrough actionsMaking it knownWho it isThat I amHere to helpHere to supportHere to make a differenceHere to have an impactWhat once was painIs now becomingSomethingMuch more beautifulThanOnce imagined and believedSeeds Have been plantedMessages Have been well-receivedI look forward toThe harvestWhere we may one dayReap and …

Love is in the Air

What does love, look like to you? Is it what a person says? How about their actions, the things they do? Is it the gifts they bring whether purchased or handmade? What is about them that says, “I LOVE YOU”?  For me, it’s about the little things people do, the simple act of noticing, taking …

Taking Life Moment By Moment

As you know, I’ve been going through many emotions, while processing and accepting this new assignment which has been given to me. I greatly appreciate you keeping me in your thoughts and prayers as I learn to listen for His voice and trust all which He has planned. Yesterday, the waves of emotions came flooding …

Ways to Say, “I Love You”

On September 4, 2023 Heaven gained an angel – My mother-in-law Went to be with Jesus – Emergency leave Gone to Minnesota For two weeks – During my absence Back home My home Alaska – My family My friends Were missing me Keeping us My family and I In thought In prayer – The good …

Waking Up From Sadness

I’ve allowed myself to wallow in my own self-pity, feeling sorry for myself, experiencing deep sadness. I wanted so much for God to remove the darkness I was feeling and replace it with light. Then, I remembered I, too, have a job to do. An important responsibility. Get a grip on, get control of my …

A Song For You

The words to a song and the singer’s voice have come to the forefront of my mind over the last couple of weeks. The name of the song is: “What a Difference You’ve Made in My Life” by Ronnie Milsap. Something about the song resonated deep within my heart and soul, spoke to me in …

Spending Time Together

Have a seatSit downPauseBe presentIn the momentYou and I areWithout judgment Without agendaOpen mindsOpen heartsLet’s beHang outSpend time togetherMake the most of the momentYou’re important to meGet to know One another betterGet caught up On days gone byExchange smilesFeel the joyIn one another’s laughter The touch of a handSoft gentle kissA warm embraceLet’s me knowHow …

Whatever He Brought You to, He Will Bring You Through!

Maybe you are mourning the loss of a loved one whose time has come to be with the Lord. Maybe you are mourning in anticipation of the loss of a loved one whose health may be failing. Maybe you are uncertain about job security, financial stability, relationships, family, health. Maybe you feel lost and broken, …

A Love That Sustains

From Dawn to dusk And Everything in between How is it You show love? Do you do Anything? Upon awakening Hug Embrace I love you Kiss Late morning Midday Late afternoon Early evening How Have you Spent your day? Noticing Validating Thinking about Kind words Gentle touch I appreciate you Thank you very much Expressions …

God Has a Way of Making Himself Known

Have you ever experienced a dream that seems to be on repeat over time? I know I have! You know what I’ve learned? There is something in my waking life I have yet to learn or understand. The more aware I become of who I am as a person, fully accept who I am, receive …

A Love So Deep

She Fell hard She Feel deep In love With a man Selfless love Human compassion With her Beside her Throughout all days During all troubled times For many seasons He did remain He saw The good The bad He come to know Every side of her From the breaths She took To the breaths She …

What is Maturity?

(Originally written in 1991 for a high school English assignment, age 18). What is maturity you may ask. Maturity occurs in a person when they are old enough to know right from worn and from the sillies to the seriousness. A mature person can take on many responsibilities and be trusted at the same time. …

Amazing What an Ounce of Kindness and Love Can Do!

Have you ever offered up even the slightest bit of kindness without the expectation of receiving anything in return? If so, did you notice a difference in your heart and how it made you feel? I know in my heart, my mind and my spirt, everything softens filling every cell in my body with peace …

Care & Nourishment

She came home with us on Mother’s Day two years ago. As the seasons changed, so did she. I thought I wasn’t doing enough, especially during the winter months and into the spring. Too much water. Not enough sunlight. Balance has been hard to find so it seems. At the two-year mark, the nursery wanted …

Called to Be

Who is it, you say that I am? Who is it, you called me to be? What is it, I am to do? Where is it, you want me to be? Circumstances Changing Mindset Perception Perspective What is it, that’s best for me? A sample A taste Of the good life Freedom No bondage No …

God’s Provision

If it’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s the importance of setting your heart and mind on the right things, those which are good, pleasing to God and help others. God knows. He sees. He provides. My family and I have put in the hard work, putting forth the time and effort to go out hunting …

Thankful For Handwritten Letters

Yesterday, another blogger brought awareness to “World Letter Writing Day.” I was grateful he brought this to my attention as handwritten letters are a love of mine. Thank you to Debasis, B +Ve!! for blogging about handwritten letters. You can see his post at the link below. LETTER WRITING DAY Handwritten Letters… On August 26, …

Pause, Listen, Hear

Dark clouds loom Over The horizon Golden rays Shine through In the midst Of The approaching storm God’s love Rings true Turbulence Once filled The sea Anger Rage Frustration The mind Unsettled too His voice Was heard The world Stood still One moment in time Floodgates opened The words Ran out I’m sorry I love …

Emptiness of the Womb

A mother Cries out Her womb Empty Miscarriage Loss Mourning Grief God He knows What timing Is all about Something Not right What possibly Could it be A purpose A plan This embryo Would have been Child Number 3 Loved Very much so loved Mourning Loss Emptiness Grief Anticipation of What Would have been New …

Sometimes

Sometimes I struggle Do you? God Has forgotten Forgiven A blessing Indeed Wiped The slate Clean Fresh start New beginning Sinned At fault Knew better Deceived Perception Truth Reality Impacted Influenced by Trauma Childhood Teenage years Adulthood PTSD Grieving Mourning Loss Wounds Unattended to Need time To reveal To discover To process Accept Love Experiences …

He Fills Me

I am a child Of The light I am a beacon Burning bright Filled with Courage Bravery Hope Much To His Delight I love I serve He unlocks Closed doors Opens windows Gentle breeze Carries me To places Never before Seen Worship Praise Gratitude

Accepting His Love

In light of trying to understand my emotions, the way I look at people, circumstances, thoughts and behaviors, I keep coming back to love and acceptance. Who is it I am? Who is it you called me to be? Your child Your servant Your daughter I know who it is I am Through My Father’s …

He is in Me

My writing Many styles Niche Yet to find Found Christ Jesus He Lives in me He Speaks through me Niche? Hmmmm…. Worry about that? Heaven’s no! God He is My one My only Author In and of life I do All things For Him I listen I obey I cry I pray Words He knows …

Reminders That No, God Is Not Mad at You — Intentional Faith

In this blog post by, Clarence L. Haynes Jr.-Intentional Faith, there are many important messages about repentance and forgiveness. Can you relate? Have you ever felt like God is mad at you? Have you ever thought this is it, after what I have just done there is no way God will ever forgive me? Have …

I Get It!

Throughout My life Struggles   Many Were had   EVERYTHING (yes I mean everything)   Didn’t  Come easy   Life lessons Learned The hard way   God He has always Been A part of  My life   From childhood Current day Mid-life   Never Have I ever Known Him Like I do Today   An …

The Greatest Gifts

The sound Of  Your laughter   The warmth Of Your smile   The joy In Your heart   The peace Your presence Brings   Thoughts Words Actions Funny phrases   Animated Beyond measure Such happiness Your Heart sings   My darling My dear My love   Your spirit Your essence Your soul God Made you …

You Rock!!

In case nobody has told you lately… You Rock!! You are AMAZING! You are BEAUTIFUL! You are CREATIVE! You are DESIRABLE! You are EXQUISITE! You are FABULOUS! You are GORGEOUS! You are HEAVENLY! You are INCREDIBLE! You are JOYOUS! You are KIND! You are LOVEABLE! You are MAGNIFICENT! You are NOTEWORTHY! You are OPTIMISTIC! You …

Make A Difference

Many years I have Been teaching Thirteen To be exact   Bonds formed Friendships make Impact Everlasting   Lives changed For  The better Many They do Appreciate   This time Around This year My year   Stronger bonds Deeper connections Seeing Each child Individual For who They are   Such love A job Working So …

Seasons in Life

What’s mine It’s me   What happens Will be   Life   Filled with Adventure Stories Transitions Heartaches Pain   Tragedy Triumph   Messes Yes There will be   A few Maybe lots   A rollercoaster A puzzle   Ups and downs Complicated   A purpose A place  A time Many reasons   Growth Learning …

He is the One

I Once knew A girl   She Had stars In  Her eyes   Puppy dog face And A sideways Smile   Dimples She wanted Them   God didn’t  Create her To look That way   She Kept to herself Was quiet   Didn’t  Stir the pot Got along Did her best With everyone   Shy …

Breath of Life

Today is my birthday A day to celebrate   For On this day I breathed On My own The first Of Many breaths In My 48 years Of life   There were moments That Left me Breathless Took My breath Away   Other times Out of breath Burning the candle At Both ends Gears shifted …

Will You Let Him In?

I Heard a knock At The front door   Who Was it?   Who Was there?   Unusual I thought   I waited I listened   Still there I Do see   Someone An outline A person For sure   Slowly Quietly Cautiously Bravely   I Opened The Door   A visitor   Surprise!   …

Heal From It, Don’t Deal With It

Deal with it Some say   Forget about it Move on Let it go The problem  Will go away   Understand   Yes Yes, I do Yet, I don’t   Stop focusing On what happened Mistakes made People Done wrong   My childhood You see I need you To understand   Words Actions Behaviors Of …

Thankful

So much To Be thankful  For   A lot To confess   Not perfect I am (ps. He already knows that)   Light-hearted In spirit A mind Focused on Gratitude   Eyes That see Good things Miracles Blessings In daily living   Feeling His unconditional love Heartfelt compassion His mercy His grace Upon us This …

My Forever Friend

What Is it   About   Your words Your tone Your voice   People Draw closer Inviting Draw near   Seeking comfort Acknowledgement Validation Noticing Of oneself   To you No one Comes close No one Can compare   You My Lord I put   ALL   My faith My trust     With me …

Last Night I Cried

Holy crap! You scared me! I didn’t know you were sitting there. Words spoken by my husband as he came upon me while I was seated underneath the window, in darkness, alone, by myself. I needed to get away. I needed to be alone and release my emotions. My family and I, we just finished …

Bedtime Prayers

Lord, where do I start as it’s been so long since I’ve made quality time for you and myself? I know my body is changing, Heaven and Earth are shaking, waking me up inside. A part of me has fallen asleep. The changing of the seasons, shorter days, more darkness, less light and many cloudy …

Hearing The “C” Word

Below is the link to the article I had published on 9.29.2020 on the Live Breathe Alaska website. I have been very excited about sharing with everyone, so here it is! Not that the “C” word is something to get excited about, rather it’s about community, finding connections, common ground and understanding. “The conversation shifted …

Be the Light

I couldn’t help but think of the Thomas Rhett’s song when I looked back on what I had written two years. He says “Be A Light,” whereas I referenced “Be the Light.” Who knew, this day in age, how powerful this is and rings true. Now more than ever we need to uplift one another, …

Taste and See

Galatians 5:22-26 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying …

Apple Of My Eye

7.27.2020   The morning Dawn   The rising Of The sun   Peeking Winking Shining Sparkling Twinkling   A New day Has come   As I sat On My comfy sofa Looking out My Living room window   His light Shined upon An Apple tree   Such delight   His way Of Showing love   …

A Girl & Her Rainbow

On July 14th @ 10:38 PM, I had been sitting on the front porch for nearly 3 hours, enjoying the silence and solitude. Clouds, far off in the distance, hovering over the mountain tops. Never once did I imagine or even thinking about rainbows appearing. Guess what? They did! I had just finished typing up …

Positive Mindset

Day 3: Fishing on the Klutina River in Alaska Saturday morning, our last day for camping out and fishing, arrived in grand style. The sun was shining, blue skies and a few puffy white clouds went floating by. Forecast for the day was for sunshine and in the 70’s. I sure hope they are right! …

Faith Over Fear

Day 2 of 3: Fishing on the Klutina River in Alaska The time was 9:30 AM. We were on no timeline or schedule for the day. I rolled out of bed (literally), and got myself ready for the day. You know how it is when you don’t have any place to go or be at …

A Father’s Day to Remember

(Above is a picture of my oldest daughter with my dad in 1996.) Like many of you, I am without my dad on Father’s Day. Circumstances may vary, however the loss of someone you love never fully heals over time. What does happen, is we learn, grow and come to understand ourselves in new ways. …

He Knows the Way

In A world Filled with   Noise Distractions Chatter   Let us Find The strength The courage The wisdom   To focus on To become   One With God Our Loving Father   Peace Silence Solitude   All these things Lead us To become Closer In relationship With Him   Learn To be still   …

Be There Always

Life Doesn’t go   As We expect As We want   Perspective Mindset Beliefs   Held within The heart The mind’s eye   Confrontation Questioning   About One’s being   The choices The things Of what One’s doing   Living life Moving To the rhythm Soul Heartbeat   Thrown off On tilt Like that Of …

You’re Beautiful

Sometimes Life Catches us Off-guard   A word A phrase A message   Forever A life Can change   Words spoken I Was so Surprised   To Be told Something Magnificent   “You’re so beautiful!”   (I could have cried.)   As You can imagine I Had to pause Catch My breath   The kindness …

The Cloud in Me

As I gazed   Up   Well beyond   Into The depths Of The blue sky   My mind Floated Like that Of Magnificent White clouds   Above me Far greater Than The mountain tops   As far as My eyes Could see   Yearning For freedom Wanting To take flight   Weightlessness Beauty   …

We’re All in This Together

While Out in My Backyard   A Pile of wood Stood Placed Was stacked In between The Birch trees   As I photographed Looked closer Inside Many of The logs I Did see Shapes Designs Growth formation Cutting lines A smiling face The other frowning   Some old Some young Some dried Others Fresh cut …

Under Construction

Construction zone Under construction Pilot car Slow down Please Heed The warning Be aware Of The signs Watch Listen Learn Obey Creating oneself Authentic and true Road repair Upgrades needed Wear and tear Slow down Take time Embrace The transition The change Worn out Old pavement Old ways Upheaval Removal Disposed of Properly New foundation …

Searching

Who she was She didn’t know   Searching In hopes of finding   Someone new   The person She would become   Who was it She hoped to find   Uncertain   Whomever it was Must be   Whole Rich Pure   Filled with Compassion Unconditional love   Divine Holy   Understanding of Oneself   …

Little Did She Know

There was something about her She just couldn’t see it The way Others do   Her beauty Her shine Her sheer energy Her way Her being Her personality Her style   Magnificent Among many Something Deep within her soul Spoke In a way like no other To everyone She did meet   Exquisite Her soul …

Memories From A Farmer’s Daughter

There was a place and time where dairy farms were flourishing, bountiful, everywhere. The time and place was my childhood era, not quite understanding everything. Me, I loved the animals, not knowing the other side: money, demographics, politics of it all. Even though I didn’t know what my parents were going through, I could feel …

Let Your Light Shine!

I know This Little light Who tries So hard To shine   So pure So tender So soft So bright   Dull For she thought Was She ever Fully able To emit   Too low Of wattage She thought Then The lightbulb Went off   An idea Could this Be true   Each lightbulb Regardless …

A Soul Set on Fire

Eyes captivated Orange glow In The distance   A fire Wait The sky Lit up Set ablaze   Oh, wait Yes The sunrise Has arrived The sunrise Is here   My heart Lit Ignited By The flame The spark   Wake up Such beauty Without you Life Is So Dark   Brighten My moments Brighten …

A Part of My Story You Are

Each of us A word A phrase A chapter A page   A story That Is written Inside A book   A body A soul Within   Time Will tell What Will be Written   About you About me About us   This life This world Only He Knows   The time The place   …

My Father & I

Does anybody know what today is? Yes! You are correct! Palm Sunday it is   Another event happened this day The year was 1933. A baby boy was born Who one day Became a man   This man No stranger to me Although Growing up A foreigner He did seem   I didn’t speak His …

Seek, and You Shall Find

Everything we need Is given to us By Him   Our faith Our strength Our courage Our love   There is nothing That cannot be done With the Lord At the wheel   In our hearts In our minds Forever He remains   He lives within us He walks beside us He also walks a …

Hope is on the Horizon

There is hope On the horizon Not everyone Can see   One Must learn To walk By faith Not By sight   There are miracles Just beyond Where The earth and sky Do meet   Waiting To be discovered Waiting To be revealed Waiting For the right moment   We Must do our part We …

Everything is Going to be Alright!

Be mindful. Give not, into fear. Yes, these are trying moments and times in our life. Media being blasted with the “C” word wherever we look, and it’s not Christ we are hearing about. Where we need to be looking is within ourselves and up to God. He is the ultimate Healer, be a believer …

Cherished Memories

The swings were calling Or Maybe it was You My friend   I heard you Whispering My name In the wind   I forgot The last time I sat down In the swings Spending time Alone With you   This day I needed A reminder To feel What it felt like To be In the …

He is My Rock

My life was taken by storm. I was caught up in a hurricane. The eye of the storm. So strong! So powerful! So fierce! So beautiful!   My world kept spinning, Rotating around.   UNTIL…   One day.   The storm, In all it’s might, Lost its strength, Lost its will. It did subside.   …

Do You See Me? Do You Notice Me?

I know your struggles are real!   You want to be seen!   You want to be heard!   You want to be appreciated!   You want to be valued too!   Your life is a story, Broken down into… Many chapters, Many pages, Many words, Many phrases.   What speaks the loudest in you …

Freedom of the Soul

Have the courage! Take a leap of faith! Be brave and share your story with someone. Opening up relieves the burden and the pain, of left feeling like you are the only one carrying the load. Trust in and give it all up to Him. He knows what is weighing you down! God is our …

Good Morning…I Love You!

I caught a glimpse I saw you Peeking Over the mountain tops   A wink A glisten A sparkle A glow   We greeted one another With a morning Hello   Into my eyes You did gaze I could not help But to stare back at you   So bold So bright So beautiful   …

The Little Girl in Me

I know who it was when back in the day, not the person that I am today. Or do I? Who was I? I really don’t know for certain. A girl, a child, a body and mind that has went through so many changes. A different time, a different place, a different mindset, for sure. …

Today is a Good Day…

There’s a strong voice inside of me that says, “Stand tall! Speak up! Be a voice! Be an advocate! Let your story be told for others to hear! You will persevere! You will heal!” A voice, spoken as loudly as, as serious as, as dominating, as that of a lion. A roaring, thundering, something coming …

“See Ya”

My family and I spent quality time together this evening at a movie. A local theatre had the 1990 movie, “Ghost” playing for free, a special on Valentine’s Day. The price was right, besides that, I couldn’t remember if I had seen the movie in the past or just the previews. Throughout the movie, I …

I Had a Dream…Was it Jesus or Simply Someone Else?

I awoke at the 2:00 AM hour on February 11th, and took probably about an hour or so to go back to sleep. When I fell back to sleep I had vivid dreams. I don’t remember all of it as there was a lot, but the last dream I had stood out a lot. In …

His Messages, Received, Transmitted

One day, not so long ago, I felt a tugging at my heart. The need to send loving and kind thoughts to a friend of mine who was in need of hearing His word. God, I do believe, put much peace and love in my heart. He reached out to let me know the perfect …

Be Kind

If you wanted to be anything in life, what would you be? Do you need some time to think about that? Don’t think too hard for the answer is much more obvious than you may realize or think. Be Kind! In a world filled with more broken people than we will ever come to know, …

Just Working On Me

I feel like It Takes so much effort I feel like It Takes so much energy I feel So awkwardly at times   To love so much So deeply inside Well within The walls The cells Of My heart My mind My soul   Disconnect Discomfort At times So it seems Not really sure What …

A Simple Statement: Powerful Message to Oneself

I AM proud of myself You just don’t know how powerful of a statement that is until you say it in your head. Say it once, it feels good. Say it twice, feels even better. Say it three times, it feels awesome. Say it four times or more…AMAZING! The power of positivity entering into my …

My Best Friend…The One I Can Trust

What is it, Lord, you want me to see? What is it Lord, you want me to do? Who is it Lord, that you want me to meet? Will this person, this place, this thing and/or idea, bring discomfort? Peace? To help me understand? To help me realize? To help me appreciate? To help me …

Snuggle? I Want Time Alone With God to Write!

This evening, my energy, my vibe has been feeling so amazingly good. Everybody else in the getting themselves ready for bed and I am getting ready to spend some quiet time with God and do some writing as I feel incredibly inspired. At last! (I think to myself.) Time alone! Time to myself! Just God …

With God, I Can Do Anything!

Today was a busy and productive day. I felt as if I was running off of high-octane fuel. I love it when my energy, enthusiasm and motivation is high. At times, a little overly active, but that helped me to get an incredible amount of tedious work done that doesn’t happen during a regular school …

God is Love

You want To come to know God You want To deepen your relationship with Him   God’s voice Brings peace Brings comfort Brings hope To those who are able to hear Him speak   You I Many of us Are drawn Towards those who speak of Jesus Christ God   Those Who speak of Him …

Thank You For Reminding Me of Why I Became a Teacher

Today, I was reminded, of the exact reasons why I do what I do for my job. I had been in communication with a parent of one of my students. At the moment, the parent is not able to be with or see their child due to a training out of state. God, He loves …

Presence of You

Our loved ones are with us at all times. In our hearts, in our minds, our spirits, our energy. Whether those whom we love and miss very much live far, far away from us, or have passed on into Heaven, there are things that we sense, that we feel, we feel, telling us they may …

Rise Up, Find Strength From Within

“Go F___Yourself: Advice From a Friend” (Click on the link below to read my original blog about my advice from a friend.) Go F___Yourself: Advice From a Friend A friend Once told me Go F_ _ _ YOURSELF   At the time, I thought… What the nerve! How dare you tell me to… Go FIND MYSELF! …

The Simple Things in Life

When your heart speaks, that is God speaking to you. That nudge, a voice, a tugging at your heart, the thought that keeps reoccurring, filled with much love and hope in knowing this is something that must be done. Yesterday, seemingly out of nowhere (but I really do know this spark, this idea came from …

God Has a Sense of Humor

The God I have come to know, is very loving, giving, kind, generous, fun and silly (He can certainly have a sense of humor). As I went to shower this evening, I thought to myself, oh…I will just leave my notebook downstairs. I wont be that long, and if God speaks to me, I will …

The Gift of Friendship

There are times, moments in my life when I feel as if I am unworthy of being loved. Stuck in the darkness of my own world, my own mind, thinking others see darkness and are distancing themselves from me. This thinking is incredibly irrational! I know I am loved! I know I am a child …

Transformation: A Time of Patience & Believing

When everything in life is falling into place, going smoothly, just right, it’s easy to see and believe good things are coming. What happens when feelings, emotions, memories, flashbacks of the past resurface and trigger something within you? Do you feel like you are yourself, or a foreigner in your own land? I know all …

High on His Love

Some say They “NEED” alcohol   Some say They “NEED” drugs   We all NEED God’s word His UNCONDITIONAL LOVE   With this The world will become Intoxicated   The body The mind The soul Will be transformed   Feelings of Peace Joy Love Happiness   High on His love Lit The light Glowing   …

Trust Your Gut, Stay on Track, God Will Get You There

God reminded me of something very important this evening. In an effort to support a friend, offering advice, offering comfort, bringing peace to their mind, the importance of doing the right thing, no matter what! Being a voice, being an advocate, being someone who stands up for the “little person” and believes in them whole-heartedly …

Trust, Faith, Believe

As I look forward into the new year, there is hope, there is love, there are new beginnings just waiting to happen. An adventure awaits me. God says things are looking good. New goals, new perspectives, new ways of seeing and believing. I trust in Him for He’s the one telling me my truths. I …

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