Romans 8:28 (ESV)
And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.
Funny how music can bring out so much emotion. From the heart, the soul, my mind, into tears. Exercising on the elliptical to elicit the happy, feel good endorphins. Why is it, then, these emotions came pouring out from my soul.
A song comes on that moves me. I can’t help but feel deep emotion. Instead of getting stuck on the emotion, feeling guilty, worry, doubt and regret with the memories and thoughts that appeared, I stopped the storm before it had the chance to rage on. Let’s just say, God has a lot to do with calming the storm that goes on inside of me.
During my 12 weeks of Mess to Majesty, with my Christian Women’s Life Coach, Mukkove Johnson, we used a tool referred to as “Interview an Emotion.” Giving the emotion, necessary time and attention provides an opportunity to feel what is really happening inside oneself. Whether good or bad (based on our own perception), emotions are a part of who we are, but we don’t need to live in and stay stuck in that place.
The emotions felt were sadness. I felt such an outpouring, the need to cry, let it out for something has not yet fully healed. Not knowing exactly what it is, I need God’s loving and spiritual guidance to help me understand, provide me with words of wisdom and where do I go next.
When a strong emotion emerged from my soul, about a week ago, I asked God, “What do you want me to do with this?” His response didn’t take very long at all. He let me know what came to mind, bringing back feelings and emotions from a time not so long ago, the best thing for me is to “Learn from it.” God, I thank you! I know you are helping me, teaching me to forgive and let go.
This morning, as I exercised, songs came on that hit me at the core, my heart, my soul. I could not stop, nor help, the outpouring of emotions that needed to be seen and heard. Again? I thought to myself. I allowed myself to mournfully cry, knowing there was a purpose behind what I felt.
I allowed myself a minute or two, composed myself and spoke to God about my emotion. “God, what do you want me to do with this?” He told me “Cleanse.” That made perfect sense! Releasing the tears will help cleanse my soul. Let go of any penned up, trapped, built up emotion. Perfect!
With that said, just a few minutes later. Another song, same thing, brought out more emotion. Okay, we got this, I thought. This time, God said, “Release.” He is acknowledging how I am feeling, knowing the importance of letting go, rather than holding onto negative emotions, painful memories. Wow! I thought, this is incredible! The way He is speaking to me. He is providing me with the wisdom needed to work through the emotion, helping it to flow rather than take control over me.
As I went to shower, I cleansed my body with the water that fell down upon me. In the moment, I was so calm, at peace, knowing I have such a loving God, A Father in Heaven who loves unconditionally. No emotions overcame me while I was in the shower. He did, however; speak words of wisdom again. He told me to “Make peace with the emotion.” Absolutely! Yes! Become one with the emotion. Don’t fight what I am feeling, just allow it to pass. He knows I have come to trust and lean on Him. My faith has grown. I have fallen more deeply in love with Him!
I am so grateful He has trusted in me so much! To be His vessel, His scribe, bring words of comfort and healing. What a gift He has provided me with! The message He has provided me about emotions, is important, holds true to my life, and perhaps even for you too. Be open, be receptive, allow space for Him to come in. He will transform you, change you, for the better and common good in this world. I believe in Him, His miracles, His ways, such blessings in my life this day.
The next time a wave of emotions comes crashing seemingly out of the blue, remember to ask God what it is He wants you to do with it. Don’t think too hard about it, stay in the present moment, don’t linger in the past. His voice will come through.
In closing, He brought my attention to Deuteronomy 31:8 (ESV),
It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; He will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.
Magnificent Meraki 